today is the last day of the first week of my surgical term. it's been... interesting. and all i want to do is go out for a quiet dinner, and maybe watch a movie. unfortunately, everyone i know is going out to have a big piss-up, and i feel like the biggest loser in the world.

i was assigned to do a long case (history, examination, presentation) on the most complicated patient i have ever encountered. it took me forever to wrap my head around it, and organize all of my notes. this morning, as i was working on it, i was grumbling to myself about how i'm putting so much effort into this work and i'm not even being paid for it. no, i didn't enter medicine for the money, but it's frustrating to still not be making any and i am putting in long hours and lots of energy. anyway, all of that changed after i finally did my presentation... my supervisor said it was "excellent". whoo-hoo!! i was on cloud nine for the next 1/2 hr. i still am quite tickled about it all.

tuesday, i watched my first surgeries. they're interesting... but i'm getting the feeling that surgery isn't for me. i guess it's a bit early to say, especially since that was my first and only day of surgery, but the lifestyle looks like it sucks and the work can get a little too meticulous. maybe if i see more to what being a surgeon is, i might change my mind. but for now, i think i'm gonna pass.

now i'm either gonna go home, or go swimming... i think i might go home, my tummy's starting to grumble.